A Typical or Atypical Pastor's Wife-whichever one you come to believe

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Friday, March 11, 2011

God Knows My Voice!

During the mid 90's I had four children at home, three of which were in diapers at the same time.  In fact for half the year their ages run in succession, 3,2,1 or 4,3,2.   Lunch times were simple.  Grilled cheese, macaroni and cheese, canned pears, or sandwiches were among their favorites.  On peanut butter and jelly day, I gave them their choice of spreads for their sandwiches.  Of course, one liked just peanut butter, one liked just jelly and one liked both, but occasionally they would mix it up and change their preference.  So on the day I was fixing PBJ sandwiches I would call to them as they played in the living room, "what do you want on your sandwich?"  My oldest son would yell "Just peanut butter!".  My youngest daughter would yell "just jelly".  When it came time for my youngest son's request he would say "Me, "E.....", wants peanut butter AND jelly."  It always tickled me that he felt that he had to identify himself... as if I wouldn't recognize his voice.

It got me to thinkin'. 

Does God recognize your voice when you call to Him? 

Have I been born again?  If not, He is not hearing my prayers.  In fact, my prayers are an abomination to Him.

 Proverbs 28:9  He who turns away his ear from listening to the law,Even his prayer is an abomination. 

I know many sinners who have come to conclusion that God does not exist because when they were truly in need, He didn't answer their prayers.  It's just a fact that if I want God's blessings I have to play by His rules, not by what I think He is like or what He should be like.  I HIGHLY recommend that some thought be put into this.  There is absolutely nothing like living for and with God's presence and approval in your life.

Does God recognize your voice when you call to Him?

Or has it been so long since you called out to Him that He has to take a second look to be certain who it is?  I recently read a Pastor's blog about prayer.  In it he admitted that his prayer life is inconsistent.  He even said that when he preaches on prayer, he feels like a tour guide giving a tour through a place he's never been.  But in the end, he surmised that God just loves it when he does pray, as if he's actually doing God a favor when he prays.  Like God has nothing better to do than to sit in heaven just waiting for us to get around to paying attention to Him!

If I treated my husband in this manner, being inconsistent in how much I talked to him, spending time with him only when it's convenient for me or when the other things on my schedule allow me to "fit him in", well, we wouldn't be happily married.  We wouldn't be married at all!!!!!!  And yet, we seem to think that God, who gave us marriage as an example of the kind of relationship he wants to have with the church, doesn't mind if we treat him this way.

Deuteronomy 4:29

" But from there you will seek the LORD your God, and you will find Him if you search for Him with all your heart and all your soul

As our Pastor said AGAIN last Sunday.  "If God's not Lord of all, He's not Lord at all." 

We are his bond slaves.  All our thoughts, all our actions are centered around His every desire and command.  He is our world! 

But God loves everyone, doesn't he??  Absolutely!  God loved every sinner that is in hell today.  But they are still in hell.  The problem is not that God doesn't love them, it is that they didn't love God. 

If we love God, we serve Him. Our actions are fruit of our love for God.  No one knew this better than the Apostle John, the one whom Jesus loved and the one who knew Jesus best. 

If I love my husband there are certain rules in our relationship that have to be followed in order for our marriage to stay strong, in order for trust to be established and maintained.  It's no different with God.  Rules seem to be good in today's world when it comes to children and society, but when it comes to the church, oh my, rules are a terrible thing!!!!  So I guess then that the 10 commandments are terrible too because last time I read them, they were a bunch of rules, do's and don'ts. 

Does God recognize your voice when you call to Him?

As a young Christian, I desired more than anything to have a child, but it just wasn't happening.  While I sat, knowing very little about prayer or what the Bible even said, I began to pour my heart out to God.  I showed him some verses I had read in His Word and told him that I truly believed that He meant what He said. 

Psalm 113:9
He makes the barren woman abide in the house As a joyful mother of children.Praise the LORD!

Psalm 128:3-4
Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine Within your house, Your children like olive plants Around your table.
Behold, for thus shall the man be blessed Who fears the LORD.

Then I began to feel guilty.  Here I was, sitting in a nice house, with all that I could possibly need whining to God about something I wanted.  I felt ashamed.  All over the world were people suffering and missionaries sacrificing and I was crying over being barren.  Then something miraculous happened.

A heaviness settled on me so heavily that I could not move out of my chair.  I felt a presence come in my driveway and all the way up to my door.  Then it entered into my house and came all the way through the house to the place that I was sitting.  It just rested on me there for a little while and then it lifted. 

When I sat up, there was something swirling around in my head that I have never let go of.

I belong to the largest family on earth.  I have more siblings than any other family on earth.  But when I call out to my father, to Him, I am His only child.  His full attention is on me.  All of his resources are mine.  All of his wisdom is at my disposal.  All of his love is wasted on me.  He's knows my voice belongs to me, out of all the voices calling to Him everyday, HE KNOWS MY VOICE!

Psalm 11:7
For the LORD is righteous, He loves righteousness;The upright will behold His face.

1 comment:

  1. I'm not sure where to begin, with this post or with your lovely comment on my blog. I suppose I shall start with your fantastic comment. I am so thankful for you and your wonderful, wise words of encouragement! Also, I am grateful for your above post. Thank you for sharing your heart!!! What a beautiful reminder of what our relationship looks like (God and the church), how important obedience is, and what an awesome, amazing, Father we have!!! Praise God.! I look forward to reading more!

    For His glory,